Letter To Be Written by Me ♡

Dear you ,

We started having a relationship on (sorry i can't remember the date)
For me ,
It was the best thing ever I had in my life.
My life never would be perfect without you before,
But sooner,
I'm stupid. I'm so dumb enough.

Later,
We started hanging out on the phone. PHONE. You know what I mean ? Text,Call & Stuffs
I love hearing your voice. With your voice , my heart flows deeply like the ocean.
Calm. Very Calm ♡
Yeah , we talked a lot. Especially when that moments you've made me laugh.

Then,
I don't know what's bugging but we broke up for a week (i think so)
even you didn't want to tell me. Right?
And then, you don't wanna leave me behind. Perfect moments ever ♡

Leaves about to turn yellow , Birds chirping.
And that's the sign of Nia Missed Faiz so much.
But that's not enough cause I'm not forever yours.

Month passed, Summer came
And here's my aim of this post.
You broke up with me again.
I have nothing else left to say to you, But nowadays
I cried , I cried , I cried , I stammed.
I totally fcking missed you.
Until that day , You've called again.
I felt a bit weak. Don't know what's coming actually.

I felt lazy to open the books, Felt not strong enough to walk,
Felt like crying when watching my friends laughing and joking around,
The most thing happening now,

I Felt .... very weak.
I don't know why I have no appetite to break-fasting.
I don't know why I'm sad all day long.
I'm afraid I had to tell you this.
I feel like hearing your voice everyday , every minutes , every seconds.
You know ? You're the only thing who can make me happy like not-so-normal happy
You're the only thing who could make me feel very alive.
You're the only , one and only thing who I can love with all of my heart ♡

Summer,

You left me. Now you're with someone more matured than me. Who can understands you.
Who can hug you more tightly. Who can kiss you sweetly. Who can make you feel alive more than before. Who can hold your hands , forever. I'm typing this special for you. It will bring us memories. Someday. And I wished you the best for your PMR. And congrats to the luckiest girl in the world who got you.

I'm crying right now.
So,
Goodluck on your new life without me.

But in one condition,
If I'm not 'here' anymore,
Promised me to bring me teddy bears for my funeral.
Leave me a card so that I can read it in Heaven.

I Love you. I miss you. And I will forever do ♡


Sincerely,

Nur Amania Dania Bt Aman Shah
♡